This freedom thing has been in my calendar for a while, do not remember puting it there. And those stuff i usually remember.. soo Mr fucking K wtf do you mean? What freedom was given to me yesterday?? Huh? Motherfucking liar…

30 sec after post update: im fine with waiting tho.

18/4. vad betyder allt? De går ju tolka saker på tusentals sätt. Men de första man känner är nästan alltid de sanna. Första eller andra. Så om jag frågar dig, Abaddon, vad betydde den blicken? Vad får jag för Svar? Första intrycket var bra, playful, happy, horny…🦄 De andra var dåligt, den hade två olika sidor som sa olika saker. Första: va den ett uppriktigt typ ”förlåt”…? Svårt att tro men man kan ju alltid hoppas… Andra: Legion Ab, ”lilo vad fan håller du på med egentligen? Vilken verklighet lever du i? Du är fast i denna loopen, remember? Vi kmr inte ge dig nånting.”, jag hoppas inte den är sann. Men om den är de så ahh, då är de väl så de är då, the fuck ska jag göra liksom? Bara acceptera fakta och loopa vidare i livet, in i evigheten.

Denna blicken var på ett speciellt ställe, där jag fick sånna minnesbilder från saker som hänt vid just den punkten, olika saker flera gånger men alltid samma ställe. De handlar om vinklar och riktningar oxå de vet jag. Iaf, just denna platsen har jag minne av betyder nåt med ”hjälp” de är de enda ordet som kommer när jag tänker på de. Om de är så så.. yes i lil help please, Will you?

Mutual Attraction Hormones, Major Accident Hazard, Mother At Home, Mad as Hell, 14:15:13 , 14.22 Multi-Layer Interconnection Board, Missing in Bed… 😛 i like that! 

seal-fi = i see fleas.

I usually always take selfies while on the toilet, it’s like the only time i have time.

I really love this filter, it does not make it look like me, but i get a good feeling from it.

Lunds Universitets Publikationer, Lying-up Point – means? Lego Universe Partner, Lifeless Undead Phenomenon, 

Fully Integrated Delivery, Field Induction Date=…, Force Identification= 11:11:23 satan, Failure Identifier=none

Promises Liability Act, Pure Love Alliance, Please Leave Alone – the fuck is that supissed to mean? 😅

COW – Copy on Write=write, Free Direct Access

Japp sitter på bussen och de är en brevid mig som ammar… vidrigt. De kmr ta slut snart allt sånt äckligt beteende som kvinnor håller på med. Ni kmr bli slavar förstår ni? Först tyckte jag ungen va söt tom och sen detta.. nejtack.

Yup, he did it, went to the toilet and then carrying my dripping Uni back to my ”bed”, and fell asleep… i hate sleeping, because when i wake up the first thing that comes is anxiety, the knowing that this horrible loop has started all over again… then after some drug it feels better, and it always makes me more or less horny and… thats like the first traps i fall into. But i dont know if they really are traps, they make me feel happy, really happy. They make me feel really good.. they make my pussypulse pump.. the pee, just makes it all feel soo much better, in all ways. It is so dirty, intimate like you can feel the inside of the person you love.. it’s warmth is or must be like coded in a special way in me, because it awakens feelings i cannot really explain. Every time im in the shower, ever since i was little, and put my face in the water it gives me some kind of magical feeling. And the one and only word that has come hard and fast into my head is ”Home”, i’ve never understood why. And to this word is an image of me watching myself in the backseat of a car, it is dark but something red is glowing somewhere. I have my hands covered over my face, then the word ”safe” comes. It makes me feel good but there is one thing that is wrong with this picture. It is in the city i grew up til i was 8, and i only get horrible feelings when thinking of or being in that city. And i see silhouettes of pinetrees, and i dont really like them. I dont get how these good feelings is mixed with the background of really really bad feelings. Ah well, whats more? 🤔 it is just all of it, the sight, the color, the smell, the taste, all! Satan has promised me it’ll be A Loot of it in all kinds of ways, everywhere and all the time! I’d love that! 😛 so now i dont really remember why i began to write. The Point, the Point is always the Point. Makes sense. Right?

NEJ JAG VILL INTE SOVA, NI KAN INTW TVINGA MIG!!! ”Sug på denna baby, du måste sova några timmar”………

GIVE IT TO ME THEN, NO YOU CANT CUS YOU’RE NOT HERE WITH ME… YEAH DADDY WE’LL SEE, IM STUBBORN SO FORCE ME IF YOU CAN.

Sug o sov är hans budskap just nu. Jag tror ente jag ska sova iaf

Nope now im sad again 😦 fucking hell, make the pain stop! Please satan take away the pain you put upon me. Why you keep doing that to your own daughter? Fucking dick… end it already…

I feel more and more happy when i get ”home”, for each time i get betrayed. What does that mean? That im happier without you? I dont know.

I smell or btw, just as Uni. Makes me feel home, safe, and of course horny as a fucking fuck fucker.

15:31:03=RTR = Ready To Run, Ready To Race, Ready To Roll, Right to Represent? Mmeans? 🦄 Receiver-Transmitter = im on it, Real-Time Response 15:00:50, Reel To Reel? Means..? Read to Read, Read to Response, Real Time Rendering, Response to Request Message , Real Time Retargeting, m.m ‎ =  ALLT PÅ ”RTR” LISTAN

POE UCP = Ready-To-Receive

MGA = Messy Genetic Algorithm  (heredity), Master Government Appraiser, Read The Rest……………….messy right? I know…

Jag vill ha, jag SKA ha röka! Satan din jävel du ser till att fixa det, you hear me???

SKA = Skills, Knowledge & Ability, Smart Keep Alive, Super Kick Ass, 

Simple Key Agreement – Share Key Authentication – Shared Key Authentication – Secret Key Algorithm = the fucking key, the code, the secret fucking keycode is = YES I FUCKING DO! Hard to understand that? And BTW, NO always means YES, get it you stupid motherfuckers? 

ASK = Ask Seek Knock, Amplitude Shift Keying – the fuck, Access Security Key – mhm YES YOU HAVE FULL ACCESS, 

SKA = Secure Attention Key – …, Start All Killing

KSA = Key System Attribute, Key Scheduling Algorithm, Key Support Areas, Key-String Algorithm, K-band Single Access = Kevin, Knight in Shining Armor…, Kick Some Ass, 

AKS = Alternate Keyword Spelling = I.D.O, Y.E.S…

DOI = Division of Interest, Digital Object Identifier, Division of Insurance, Date of Incorporation, Depth of Inheritance, Domain Of Interpretation, Definition of Insanity, Double Opt In, Declaration of Intent = yes, Date of Introduction, Death On Impact, Dry Operating Index – dry? Fuck that, Day of Install, Description, Operation & Installation, Depth of Invasion = deepest there is, highest it goes, 

OID = Original Id, Oracle Internet Directory, Original Install Date, Only in Dreams = no no no, Other Infant Death = BABIES ON FIRE, Optimal Inner Decoding, Object to Image Receptor Distance, 

ROD = Record Of Decision = yes…, Ring of Death, Read Or Die, Ring of Destruction, Realms of Despair, Reign of Darkness, Rate Of Descent = you know what to do… you not stupid are you? Yes you are…, Run Out Date, Record on Demand, Ring of Destiny, Run-Of-Day

i’m sad… where is my dad? The sickening picture of one of many betrayals is stuck in my head. I cannot even describe the feeling… so yes im sad. I want a family, but We are not family, it was a lie. A lie for who? Me or you? How can you, if you see me as your daughter and wife, even think of doing something like that? To hurt that person so badly? So i say fuck you, you are the fuckkng worst and pathetic people ever and i dont want anything more to do with you.

The picture… I feel so lonely, so sad, so betrayed. The sadness penetrates every part of my being. I just want to go home, ”Lilo you have no home, you Will never have, you are not ours, we have others, sexy girls who like to come up and talk to us, they make us so horny, and we dont give a fuck about your sadness about it, you are nothing to us, nothing! Worthless!”

It just really sucks…

Den kändes, den kändes hårt. Hårt som sten, en sten rakt i fucking ansiktet. Sätt den där på riktigt ist… skjut mig för de där va fan droppen… är så fucking äcklad, riktigt jävla vidrigt. Hur får man bort en sån känsla, minnesbilden i huvet? Man lägger sig ner, fixar med lite grejer, väntar.. väntar lite till.. så är de över, borta. I staden jag hatar. Orkar inte mer, de fucking krossar varenda cell av mig. De får va över nu, eller hur? B. Jag väljer att lägga mig ner och vänta… bort bort bort. Jag vet övertaget och kontrollen ni har över mitt liv, ”de är omöjligt för henne att göra nåt sånt, satan kommer inte låta henne”, kanske inte men då ber jag på mina bara knän; låt mig välja hur detta ska sluta, släpp kontrollen och låt mig styra mina val. Vi får se om de går eller inte. Men en sak är säker, detta kmr sluta på nåt sätt väldigt snart.. hur? Nåt stort, nåt som vänder allt totalt upp och ner, nåt som är större än vad jag kan förstå, än vad nån kan förstå. En brytpunkt, nåt plötsligt som på en enda sekund vänder hela verkligheten. Kommer de va nåt bra? Jag tror inte det om jag ska va ärlig. Det existerar bara svek i denna världen…

im to horny to function. Please satan come and pee on me, warm me up.

Date of Initial Appointment=18/4, Deadline Imposition for Arrival, 

POA – Prisoner of Azkaban, Plan Of Action, Proof of Acceptance, Party of Action, Present On Admission , Programme of Action, Pledge of Allegiance, Points of Agreement, Plan of Attack, Program of Activities 

Proof of Age=12, Peak Oil Aware, Pattern Of Analysis, Probability of Adequacy

18267 = AHBFG

AHB – A Hundred Birds, 

BFG – Big Friendly Giant, Briefing, Breastfeeding, Battlefleet Gothic, Bound for Glory, Blue Fire Group, Best for Gaming, Beat-Frequency Generator, Binary Frequency Generator, 

Demons stepping forward, rushing, the anger glows with fire. Shooting a star right in its face. Bursting, crushing, splitting. Fan vet jag, fråga mig inte frågor jag inte kan svaret på. Uppenbart, om du vill. Jag vill så kör på de. The fields are like cotton, flying like an eagle in unicorn mode. Love it, hate it, WANT IT!

AGO – Aims, Goals, Objectives, Armygeddon, Alpha Grand Ouest

WND – Will Not Disclose = hell nah, World Net Daily

JAG ÄR FÖR-FÖRVIRRAD. Where is the sense? Does it make itself to make sense? I dont know. It’s probably coming to clarity someway. You are everywhere, but nowhere to be found. Can you show me what you are going for? What you are fighting for? Show me please. Dance. Full empty fulness. 

AAG – Affirmative Action Group, 

Albert Grover & Associates

Fire Knock Out

HEL = Helaman, Hells Elite Legions, Highest-Expected Loss, ingen aning faktiskt. 

Guidance Electronics Assembly

GID – Group Identifier, Group Id = we are Legion, Global Identifier

Grazing Incidence Diffraction, Gender Identity Dysphoria = if you have a dick, you’re a MAN, if you have a pussy, you are a WOMAN. Simple you are one of those two, not a mix of both, not half of any, NOT ANYTHING ELSE YOU GET IT?

BITER BÄVERN I BARKEN? 

EN PINNE ÄR ALLTID EN PINNE!

DAH

Discoveries in the Judaean Desert

Legionella

Delivery Under Bond

PRF – Proof, Pics Rules File, Profile, Pedigree Resource File, Personality Research Form, Proof File, Project Request Form, Product Release Form

AND – Allow Natural Death, Alpha Numeric Display, Analytics for Noisy Unstructured Text Data, Automatic Network Dialing, Argument Number Decrease

DNA – Dark Native Apostle, Defense Nuclear Agency, Direct Network Attach, Do not Age, Do Not Adopt, Does not Answer, Delivery Network Accelerator, Distributed Network Attack, Did Not Answer, Did Not Attend, Do Not Ask, Definitely Not Attractive

Uni o jag igen, saknat henne. Hon luktar sååå fucking underbart. Smell of pee gets me going, for sure 💦💛

when blue turns green, i dont know, it just… hurts. Really bad.

The turning, the falling. away, away, far away.

CCO – Cyber Control Order

DGE – Does God Exist? = stupid question, Dynamic Gain Equalization, Digital Gene Expression, Dominion Group Entertainment

off, off, off. No, no, no, help me? No thank you. Somehow it just gonna work itself out. Feels wrong, feels right, feels alot actually… no i do not like it. My head hurts from spinning, running to the fields, off again. No thank you i Said. Keep it like this if it makes you happy, dont mind my mind, dont mind the hurt, keep pushing me over the edge so i can fall with you. Crushing down like the tears falling, it is inevitable. So what you gonna do? Keep crushing, keep pushing, keep falling. Simple as that, im not scared i’ll gladly die for you, falling… down… hits… hard…

förlåt 😭😭😭

True Pagan Warrior=damn straight!!!

The Professional Wordsmith=probably, yes…

DMC – Devil May Cry=hopefully…Dynamic Matrix Control, Drive My Car, 

CMD = Command, Call Me Dave=Play.  Command Definition= komma tillbaka en gång till efter BOC, TO TAKE PICTURES OF TREES! Of lies…Contamination Monitor Package, Common Membership Directory, Contract Management District, Coal Mine Drainage, Centralized Message Distribution = pwees yes…

Color = lila grå orange 

Annoyance Call Bureau.. Advanced Communicator – Bronze, Automatic Circuit Breaker, As Cities Burn = like the sound of that. Like, really like. Mabye even makes me like a lil’horny, 

Access Barred Signal, Antichrist’s Cook Book – mjuff…

FAF – Final Approach Fix, Forgive And Forget = hyeah right, Freedom Isn’t Free = means you’ll torment me forever?…, Forged Alliance Forever = haha dont even have a comment for that one, Fire-And-Forget = yes please help me forget…, Find All Files = dont understand what the fuck you mean, you mean bastards. Families Are Forever = they are and how does that relate to us?.., Fast Access Format, Frost and Flame, Free Art Friday = free art No day. Facts and Fables, 

HOG – Heart of Gold = nopee, Hand of God = Satan, Hidden Object Game = way past that, Hammer of Glory… 😅, House Of God = what about it? Heroes Of Games = 🤦🏼‍♀️ High-Order Godunov

HOB – House of Blues, House of Bishops, Hang On Back??, Head of Bed, Hoes Before Bros = You go fuck whoever you want, go ahead. Heart of Business

BSS – Broken Social Scene = can imagine, dont give a fuck tho, Beta Systems Software, Best Shot Selector = just do it, Balanced Salt Solution = only need myself and my own, Bed Shear Stress = means?, Blind Source Separation, Block Started by Symbol = moon, Black Sheep Squadron, Battered Spouse Syndrome = haha yeah something like that, although not. Bit Stream Signed, Blog Secret Story = spoiler; everybody dies, Batman’s Shameful Secret = dont know, sure it was tiny tho, Bit Synchronous Single-Wire = single yes, and choose to be forever, 

AGB – Asymptotic Giant Branch?, Ice Breaker, 

Debugging

PREGABALIN = PLEABARGAINING, GENENGINEERING, NIGGERRIGGING, IRREPAIRABLE, REARRAIGNING, BELLRINGING, INGENERABLE, PREALIGNING,