Yes i just got a good Idea for you fuckers to do. Ok so since it is you fault that i do drugs (well lets face it everything is your fault…) then i will just fucking tell you. I personally think this is a good Idea.

To make it extra clear; the first part of this story is true and i really mean what i say. The other part is just a story, a fantasy ok?………

First, this goes for ALL of you, but in this story i will have MrP.d and his fav. So how about…first you go to your favourite colleague, walk up to her from behind, slowly so she does not hear you, look at her body really see all of it, and her ass Omg the ass on that chick. Can you feel it? Your getting… hard? Right? Yeah Your are. She looks so Perfect. So you walk closer, so close you can smell her, and her wonderful perfume. And you are so fucking horny for her that you cannot help yourself but to grab her by the waist, firm, and drag her steady against your dick. Feels good right? And she is in on it. So put your lips against her neck, on the left side, and start passionately kiss her, smell her. And you use your hands to move her against you and you grind her, hard and slow. Oh yes you can feel it.. feels really good in your dick when you read this right? Dont answer i have that information already..

Then you take your left hand to go inside her pants, slowly feeling your way down to her Perfect pussy, you feel it, so wet… you are now really motherfucking horny, oh do you feel bad now? 🥺 haha well the most appropriate response is to keep Reading, right?…. You take your right hand and go inside her shirt, touching her Perfectly shaped boobies, the nipples make you go crazy.. so you turn her around, feeling and seeing her pussy against your hard dick, makes you so desperate for more… you know she likes it wet so you start pulling down your pants, you really need to pee, you have been holding it for her, hold your left hand steady around her hip and ass, put yourself in one of your sexy positions and just start peeing all over her, oh it feels sooo good right? Yes it sure does 11:22… get into the picture again, hear how she moans for you, she is so horny too. Feel it, see it, Live it.

You see now? There is your destination.. now you go do that and leave me the Fuck alone. This betrayal is on a level not even worth to describe.. and i have no more words for you.

Second part later.

playboys, boytoys, worthless, LIAR LIAR LIAR.

No, i know i remember, i have fallen further than i Said i would, fuck you very much. Listen to me now ”daddys” and this is important; you dont really matter but if you try to pull ONE more goddamn lie to me.. no you know what you dont have to do that you already did enough and now? None of you fucking business, haha you wont be there for it that is for sure…

And then? I think i’ll be looking for a hot stranger to fuck, dont worry i will take pictures of Us having a really nice time. Maybe i find more than one…

I dont have ANY motivation for anything right now and the feeling is killing me, im spiritually dead. There is so much fucking shit i would like to throw on you disgusting fkn losers, but i just dont have energy to care… you dont know how it feels, i barely know… and i dont know how to make this stop, and i feel sad and abandoned, really sad, not worth anything Else than lies and pain. I Wish you could just kill me, thats all i want this moment. Freedom from everything. So please dont make me do it myself, just come to me and pull the trigger. Im desperate for peace, freedom and getting away from you. My will to live turns out to be broken into pieces.

Piece after piece after piece, i wont pick them up no more. I will let death Win…

Hope you are proud and happy for yourselves now…

Beginning Of Day=This is kind of mean to tell after what i wrote. And i dont know if i can apologize for not trusting those promises anymore, but sure i trust you so go on. Yes kdick told me the latest time… thats good i guess so i can fall alsleep in peace and not have to Wonder. 

STOP IT IM NOT ANSWERING THOSE QUESTIONS BECAUSE KNOWING STUFF LIKE THAT JUST MAKES THE DISAPPOINTMENT WORSE…

Yes the day you actually come, i will have the bible in bed so you can soak it to… 😛😘

Ja jag vill VERKLIGEN ha dig. 

er alla. 

Vafan tror ni skithögar? Ni är och har allt jag nånsin kan önska. Allt! Jag är eran, & ni är mina! Så är det bara. Men tkr ni kan sluta göra fler sånna här löften nu, låt mig göra roliga saker tiden som är kvar så att jag står ut att vänta. Känns inte som de måste va så jävla nödvändigt att lura mig på de fler gånger nu. Om de är så vilket jag fattar utan att behöva tänka, så undrar jag verkligen vad som såhär nära kan va så fkn mkt viktigare? Om det verkligen är sån kärlek ni beskriver att ni känner för mig, så går de inte ihop i mitt huvud att jag fortfarande ligger här ensam. De går bara inte. Inte heller att ni då skulle kunna såra mig så hårt, så många gånger och inte ens komma tillbaka o trösta mig.. de kan inte funka så. 

Men oavsett allt de så vill jag innerst inne inget annat än att ha er. Inget fucking annat, jag tror ni vet vad jag pratar om.. ni är hela mitt liv och kan jag inte få spendera evigheten med er så vill jag inget annat än att dö. Jag kan inte leva utan er, det går inte, jag kan inte, jag vill inte. Jag skulle gå vilse men alla vägar hade lett rakt ner. 

Jag är så fucking kär i er fattar ni inte det? Sålänge ni är nära mig så kan jag offra ALLT annat, jag behöver ingen och inget annat. Nu ska jag väl sova snart känns de som. Men måste ju hålla mig vaken till de ”magiska klockslaget” så jag kan sova i ro… 

21:58 is it the Power Of Despration?

09.00 no it is not

There are a lot….

ok so apparently it is now a done deal. I dont really know what, or maybe i dont want to see it because a Done Deal is another way to express a Promise will be… yeah u know how it goes. And i think it is really mean to do like that when i felt ok with the new time… i dont know how many days you keep that shit up, because its enough for me at least..

It’s beginning to look a lot like ch… no rly not. I feel spiritualy dead, i sense and feel nothing. Nothing is fun, o usually love to write and look forward to it but no i dont feel that now. Everything is just fading away, like a magic hallucination…

Direct Exhaust Injection, Dynamic Effect Intake, Determination of Eligibility, Depth of Exploration, Dying of Boredom, Duty Of Care, Drug of Choice, Due Out Cancellation, Daughter of Compliance, Defamation of Character

THE DRUGS WONT EVEN FKN GIVE ME ANYTHING. Dictators of Fate  (gaming group), Drugs of Faith , Degree Of Freedom, Dads of Gaming, Death Or Glory, Department of Hell, Did Not Show, Determination of Non Significance, Day & Night Sight, Date Not Specified-never, Static No Delivery, Declaration of Independence, Date Of Loss, Double or Nothing, Determination of Need, Dropped Object Protection…First Delivery Attempt, Free Direct Access

I Know You sitting and reading my notes, i know you see exactly what i write. So with that newfound connection; does it feel good to hurt me? I Wonder what you’re thinking when you read that, how do you react In Real Life. Because you are each two parts. One from the world, the outside and looks, physical, the so fkn formal, work-only loving pigs, the real ones that actually exist, that if i see you you dont suddenly disappear, like i, when awake have seen tu multiple times right in front of me. Then just like that, gone. It looks like water in a glass that flows over, she just ”rained” away. And the dreams.. it is a disgusting feeling, when so safe and happy one second then in the blink of an eye they are not just only gone, but everything about there existence there and then vanishes completely from your consiousness, yet… you are still fucking aware of what just happened.. weird and not nice feeling and experience at all. And now i begin to feel those much more intense regarding you. I feel it, the flashes of memories. Which they to appears for a split second when i think about it, and i can feel the feeling of it. But i cannot hold onto it, it fades away fast. 

Any way, then there is the part of you that is all other than that, so fucking ironic is the way you truly are. You play really good i’ll have to give you that. The one who stands for the inside and the truth. The so damn magical, Well looks pretty magical to, the blood in my veins. I think that the DNA is what binds together our spirits to our bodys, fkn divine. 

So about where this started with your reaction to my question, fuck cant remember, you are TWO motherfucking parts standing for pretty much all opposites of the other. Cant you fucking merge the fuck together sometime?? Whats your problem? I dont like those feelings and now when the disappearing memory came and is sticking to you, it idk worries me. No idk. 

I also Wonder how you look and where you are when you make the decision to hurt me. Do you look bothered? Do you laugh at me? Do you go tell everyone how stupid i am for believing you? Or do you just sir there and think? Hm something is changing because i havent thought of you in that way before… 🧐

If your not planning to stick around, then dont come back. If you not planning for something bigger, then dont come back.

If you gonna keep block everything, then dont come back!

I cannot have you like this. I dont want you like this. My need for you is only imagination. So… wont answer me anymore? Then dont bigger answer ever again.

Internationella tillgänglighetsdagen….

Control Code Indicator, Christian Duty Alliance,

Okej are you serious now? I have just accepted and found som comfort in knowing the date is 25th.. it is bareable u know. Now mtf kevin pulls ”well you remember i told you sometimes about a surprise? It is only a few days from now but baby it is hard to wait, so there might be a surprise coming”. That is so fucking mean.. i dont even gonna give you the pleasure of rejecting you…

…

My period in 5 days tells me that no the 25th is when it is gonna be. Dont fkn try to fool me again when i have fucking accepted the date!!! What the fuck is the point in torture me more the last time!! Just fkn mean. Fuck off you dirt 

Dirty But Clean, Design-Build Contract, Don’t Be Cruel=agree, Don’t Be Evil, Double Bond Equivalent, 

Dirty Boat Guy, With Approved Credit, Works As Coded, Without Any Control, 

The Ask, the asking, the as king.

15 maj internationella familjedagen… den svider ju lite får jag säga.

De va nåt mer jag skulle skriva men har glömt plus jag glömmer mitt kaffe. Fuck off.

Trumps GoldenShower heads 🤭😅😅 haha good one.

The thing we never told from yesterday in the bathroom was that it was slimy in my pussy.

I have pee on my sweater and it smells really good, reminds a lil of the vikingtrees smell, the Homesmell 🫠💛

d cant you come with your bike and roar for me? I like that.

Haha i like the shooting of the girl with the stuffed piggy 👏🏼 that’s the stuff we need more of 😛

That was some smooth moves you had there. What to do other than submit to you.

Real Escape Game, Random Event Generator,

Flash Flood Statement=that the floods in the bible is a reference to your peeing? Ok good. Free Fall Sensor=fell me, take me down low. Family Fun Stuff, Failure-Free Survival, Full-Flow Settling, Force Feel System, Flood/Flash Flood Statement=the flood thing was right? Got it.   Freedom for Some=This is apparently a very important one to confirm som stuff for people who asked for it. Yeah confirmed Words. Final Focus System, Fast Full Search, Fund Fact Sheet, Free Flow Speed,

Flood Forecasting System FFSFriends for Sale  (Facebook application)FFSFight for Sight  (est. 1946)FFSFree-Form Surface  (optics)FFSFertility and Family Surveys FFSFuture Flight Support

Tbc…

11:48 2 maj Harry Potter dagen?? Varför fick inte jag en fkn notis om de…?

Bedbug, Overbed Table, Orange Blossom Trail, Off-Block Time, Orange Bitey Thing=t i know you like bites… from only me. Do you have to be such Dicks if im putting you on here?? I already know.

On the dick and everywhere, you know what toBit? I’ll be your personal fucking vampire if you want… i wont, but if you dont fkn behave i will bite the thing off… Promise you. So word of advise u horny thing; behave!

The bugs, the Satan Bugs….. the methbugs.. i think i just realized i have them in the back of my head in my hair. On the skin obviously. Its like small dots that itch, the methbugs… they real those fuckers.. tell u that.. fkn dickdudes. [::Bugbugbug::]

I could use my pacifier right now.. 🙄🤭

Things I Must Experience=Oh that’s just a Hell of a lot of dirty, disgusting, messy and forbidden things. You know the things that really make you Feel.. nasty 😛🤫 and i want to do them in All Possible Ways. Lots of other stuff too but this what i thinkd of now.

Yesterday night:

Effective Project Approval=all access’s given, again… for? Prob nothing

Day out of Days, Date Of Death, Digital On Demand, Definition of Done, Drink of the Day, Drug Overdose, Date of Delivery, 

Dereliction of Duty=as expected…Day of Doom=do it come and kill me… id love that, Downstream on Demand=i go low

Delivery of Deed, Dissociated Vertical Deviation, Direct Vendor Delivery, Dependant Value Object, Domestic Violence Order=come violate me, Date of Visit, Leap of Faith, 

You know what, get the hell away as far from Me that’s possible. Never. Fucking. Again. No Further Action, Not Fade Away, Not Fooling Around, Number of False Alarms- not like ive counted….

GET THE FUCK AWAY, IF YOU FUCKING DARE COME BACK I WILL………………………. THE DADSIDE OF MY THROAT. AND THEN I HOPE THAT IMAGE STICKS ON YOUR BRAIN AND HEART UNTIL IT PHYSICALLY BEGINS TO EAT THEM THE FUCK UP. HAHA DEATH FROM HEARTBREAK THAT MUST BE THE WORST POSSIBLE WAY TO DIE FOR YOU. YOU BRING ONLY MISERY IN MY LIFE. FINAL FUCKING ORDER; YOU GET THE FUCK AWAY.

Adverse Drug Events=yes thats the way you plan to kill me… i get it now 😳 well bring it the fuck over here and put that killingDose poison in my ass… deliver me from this shitty existence, you know how my chances of surviving without you are: slim to none. Benchmark Dose

Infinity on High, Lap of Luxury, Living on Love, List of Lists, Lack of Love  (game), Lowest of the Low, Loss Of Light, Lord of Life  (Church), Laws of Life, Loyal Orange Lodge, Love On Line, Lips on Lips, Lots of Lollipops=oh shit u dont say. Lord of the Lambs, Lots Of Llamas, Lord of Lucifer, List Of Lights,

Yes i motherfucking got it. 

Life or Death, Luck Of the Draw, De Oppresso Liber  , Degree Of Liking, Direct On Line, Dude Of Life, Dream of Life, Day of Launch=25th…

Fuck off you could have motherfucking told me earlier.. fkn assholes. 

I dunno… dont know how to react even. Feels like eternity and therefore it feels everything is put on hold now. Fuck that shit.

Dont even have energy to write…

Bright Class O= yes im pulling on my asscheek.. 😏 Lord of the Rings

Kevin: ”l’ho 

Fuck ok yes give me proof

Work Under Contract=dont believe that..

Battle of Masters, Beginning of Media, 

Beginning of Mission, Make or Break, Meaning of Life, Muscle of Love?, Moaning Out Loud, Maintenance on Demand, Masters of Deception , Method of Delivery, My Other Dad, 

Miracle of Love

Make Our Day, Mask of Destiny=mask. Metres Above Ordnance Datum, Date Of Marriage, Show the Plan, Straight Through Process, Signaling Transfer Point, Stand-to-Pee, Sooner Than Possible, Send Tell Please=yes. Speed Test Pro, Shared-Memory Parallelism, See Me, Please…Smoke More Pot=yes daddy 😏 Pre-Marital Sex=of course😛, Post More Soon

See Me, Please

SMP

Smoke More Pot

Stack Pointer

STP

Set up

STP

Self Test Program

STP

System Tracking Program

STP

Stream Protocol

STP

Synchronized Transaction Processing

STP

Site Admin Template File

STP

Storage Tunneling Protocol

STP

Server Time Protocol

STP

Scan to Pdf

Pissy Mood Syndrome 😅 Pamper Me Softly, Inc., Poe Middle School.. 🙄🤦🏼‍♀️ Post Meal Sleepies :-)=roofies and other feel good shit i’ve heard 😛🤤🫠

Global Positioning System, Global Positioning Satellite System, 

God’s Positioning System,

Effective Project Approval=all access’s given, again… for? Prob nothing

Keeep gooiiing…….

Add High, Music Information Retrieval, Micropower Impulse Radar=mini’d with his skills in pussyPounding

Unfair Competition Prevention Act, the one under is the song. U know coola kids. Unfair Commercial Practices Directive = like this one 😅 Urinary Cysteine Peptidase Inhibitors, Mind, Body and Spirit, 22:38 SOMETHING WITH YOU AND TAKING A SHIT IDK. Multiple Bird Syndrome,

After-Visit Summary  (), Availability Status, 12, Automatic Verification System, A Virtual Solution.., Voice Switch Engineering, Thermal Shut Down, Tell-Show-Do, Test Start Date, That Sounds Dirty, Team Start Date, 

DST = Daylight Saving Time?, Digital Signature Trust, Doctor() of Sacred Theology, Save the Date, Saves The Day, St. David, Super Twist Display=wonder what… Seize the Day, Small Target Detection, Danger to Self  (psychiatry)=im not= Don’t Think So, 

Down to Smoke, Disaster Tolerant Solutions, Decoding Time Stamp, Decline to State, Deemed to Satisfy, Down to Snuggle, Date Time Satisfied, The Daydream Sound, Temperature, Depth, Salinity, Breaking All Illusions, Blue Anchor Inc., yes u a King d, My King… i dont know its confusing as fuck. I just need to protect myself from getting too hurt u know…

But yeah fuck it i Rise so fucking fast from the speed and weed that its probably worth it 😏🙄😛🤷🏼‍♀️

Btw kevin slår mig. De gör ju inte ont eller så men ser hur han slappar till mig igenom huvet 😅 han säger de är de dåliga som är menat till alla andra honkönade människor mm, och de måste tydligen gå genom mig… ringa soc eller barnmisshandel för fan 😅😅🤦🏼‍♀️🤭

Precis när jag skrev de sista så hörde jag nåt vid dörren precis nu, och en jävla massa pussypounding, holy shit 😳 feels really damn good.

This is also a order post.

Deep Hidden Meaning

Order Handling Rules = get it

In Light Of = Lights In Light Out, Integrated Lights Out, Intended Learning Outcome, Integrated Lights-Out Technology, Injection Locked Oscillator-rohypnol? Midazolam? Annat? Initial Lightoff=ROHYPNOL I GET IT! Initial License Offering=1.yes 2. 12.42, O or E? 3. 

Outgoing Repeater, Ordnance Gunnery and Readiness, 

Initial License Offering=initial essence? Initial pee? Like in other words ”first time you’ll pee on me?”. What about it?

Old Growth Riverwood

Outgoing Repeater, 

Layered Interconnection Network

Late Bronze Age- Good

HMD – Hold Me Down, Hierarchical Message Description, 

FFF – Full Fathom Five, ok not Done with this one but have to to something first…

NWS = New World Symphony, Neighborhood Watchers=my ”babysitters” and for you? Gangstalking, MK-ULTRA. Nuclear Weapon State, Network Warfare Squadron, North Warning System, Nose Wheel Steering, New World Sports, Next Wave Systems, 

No Way Out, 

Data Address Word=bugged, 

Document View Architecture=the blueprint?, Direct Video Access, Domestic Violence and Abuse, Defence Wetting Agency, Ideographic Variation Database,

Internal Voice and Data, Incomplete Vehicle Document=nr to?,

Human Error Occurrence, Highly-inclined Elliptical Orbit, Out of Home Entertainment, Over Head Equipment=Which of them u mean? 

Hands-On Experience, Heaven on Earth, Hell on Earth, Hostels of Europe, Hands-On Exercise, Holographic Optical Element, Homing Overlay Experiment, Halt on Error, End of Hole = end? Hahah, End of Heartache=prob not, Equipment On Hand=iphone, pencil, lighter, joint, card whatever it is i hold, there is fire. Eye of Horus, Equivalent Operating Hours

Ok then, that pretty much settles it..

Voices Of Insanity.

motherfucking VOICES aint getting me down. If they are just in my head then i as i always know Do have the Most control. And now i Know for a fact that some kind of physical merging just aint gonna happen, so then i dont have to hope for it because i already know. Sad yes, but im not sad right now so shut up about that…Soo the plan that was closest was the Pee PussyPounding feelings… 😛 they could feel fucking magical. That is not a human feeling that shit was divine. But they Said that was Nothing compare to what awaited us.. thats a fkn shame. Ah well so yeah i think and i hope i can use them now to make them make my pussy fly to the unicornfields..😏🤭 i think that is the only thing i can think of. Omg obviously…🤦🏼‍♀️ oh they are already starting shit better finish this up.

15:55

21:23 Ok so this a post i deleted a while ago. It coming up again.

I just came so fkn hard 2 times while peeing on poc2 🥵 daddies i need u.

Ok so Kevin-No-Show is telling me this post i at least thought i posted few days ago, is a very important one.. i dont know how i feel about that… u know. But if im gonna be the master of the game i have to play all of it. Well i know im an upriser so lets play.

20:35

So i forget to post this time too. Now k wants me to do it but now my mood is down, but yeah here goes nothing.

”POEI=Poe Injector, POELIC=ofc you gonna lick my pussy daddy.. 😛🤭

POET=Power over Ethernet, Persistent Objects and Extended Database Technology, Planar Optoelectronic Technology, Point of Entry Treatment=yes my door is always oPen for my daddys, and soon i hope You come give me my pleasureTreatment.. Physician Order Entry Team, Parents Opposed to Excessive Television =oh the irony 😅, Post Esposizione=yes you can take pictures with me. As long as you use MY filter, but then that dont go on you. You know what take whatever pictures u want but use a GOOD filter that does not make u a girl ok? 🤭👑Point of Entry Selection Test=I passed whatever test this was/is, i already know. Im the fkn best 👑🦄 POEP= Power over Ethernet Plus, Protection of EIF2 (Eukaryotic Initiation Factor 2) Alpha Phosphorylation  (biochemistry), Passcape Outlook Express Password Recovery=poel:peepool1312? 🧐🥳, POEOA=I am A&O, You are O&A. POEM=Peripheral Original Equipment Manufacturer, POEMA=din mamma… 😏 POEMS=Primus Order Entry Management System-you thinking about finally seeing, touching & tasting my pussy?.. hope you DoDad! 😛.

Fluid Accumulation Status Trial: Flu Id=corona:arcon:narcon:on arc=covid:cod:viiv=C+J=g=Vi God-dog vi? Nope. And then there is a bed in there too. Most Exposed Individual, Final Assembly and Test, Forward Alpha Scattering Technique, Fuel And Sensor Tank, Fleet Assist and Support Team, Facilitated Awareness Stimulus”

Simple Object Access Protocol  (XML protocol), Snakes on A Plane, Standards of Academic Progress, Strategy on a Page, Symbolic Optimizing Assembler Program, Simple Object Access Protocol, Subjective, Objective, Assessment, Plan , Student Opportunity and Access Program, Seal of Approval Process, Spirit of America Party, Society for Obstetric Anesthesia and Perinatology, Subject, Occasion, Audience, and Purposec Stanford Online Accessibility Program  (Stanford University; California), Symbolic Optimal Assembly Program (programming language for the IBM 650 computer in the late 1950’s), Spectrometric Oil Analysis Program, Small Operator Assistance Program, Satellite Orbit Analysis Program (standard program to analyze satellite orbits; MILSATCOM), Scripture, Observation, Application, Prayer, Spectrographic Oil Analysis Program, Society for Ottawa Anime Promotion, Students Organized Against Poverty, Statement of Agreed Pricing  (various companies), Supply Operations Assistance Program, Students Organized Against Prejudice, Society of Aerospace Professionals, Sexual Offender Apprehension Program, Slaughterhouse Operators Association of the Philippines, Student Organization for Animal Protection, Society of Airway Pioneers, Student Organization for Activity Planning  (Salisbury State University), Same Opposite Always Positive (factoring sum and difference of two perfect cubes), Summary On A Page, Systems/Operations Analysis of Programs, Supertanker Operational Assessment Project, Systems for Oceanic Analysis and Prediction, SIM Over the Air Programming (wireless telecommunications), Stamp Out Acronym Pronunciation :-), Spine, Orthopedic and Pain, Subjective Objective Action and Plan of treatment.

That is apparently the whole sum of.. something.

Ja juste han har en del bra låtar.. MrP och JoFa’n.

What to tell you? start with

Habakkuk-han har bra kuk.

Ha kuk bak? Japp sätt in den i röven på mig. FÖRSIKTIGT!!

Ok yeah im ruling my voices.

Husbands and Boyfriends, Habitability, Hot And Bothered, Hot American Babe=i dont think im really american tho.. A Hundred Birds, ohh now comes a few good ones;

Mother Of the Groom, Men of God, Mother of God=my mommy, Messenger of God, Material Other than Grain, Matter Other than Grapes, Magician, Magnetic, Gynecologic Oncology Group, Gift Of God, Gods Of Gaming, Guns of Glory  (gaming clan), Good Old Giggle, Globe of Geek, Gathering of Guilds

Underground Nuclear Explosion

Kevin is yet to be found…

16:52 en pinne är alltid en pinne…

16:55 Ja.. that was pretty hot i guess 🙄🤭😛

Hohoho and a bott’l of rum, i am on the run now. From a herd… of piggys… imma fly higher than them now i hope.. the cannot fly without me, they can only fall and since they already are The Fallen Ones, i suspect that they cannot reach me where im going.

I wonder how it’ll feel later on when they notice im gone.. i hope they suffer.

12:48

Bullshit time.

tbc… yes without satan… ofc

Yup the disgusting motherfucker Kevin wants to do it again… haha give up already. You can make as many sacred promises you want to, i have learnt you not keeping them so what exactly is you point stupid fuckers? I dont even get sad anymore because i have let you go, i have totally given up on ALL the things you have promised me. So… but yeah if you want to make the same promise on My and N.T’s and my familys lives, then do.

Mhm he wants to spice things up, if they do NOT keep it this time, that means they hate me/us. And it is gonna be a 112/13% Absolute truth. And he throws in a fkn amen to… ok good now you did it, you know i dont fkn care if you hate us, because I HATE YOU TOO. looks like your not gonna Win this time haha. I have zero fucks to give all of you and your fkn promises. Feels unneccessary to make that promise again when you obviously already lost. I would say i like your fighting spirit.. but no.. i dont like anything about you… i only love myself and my One True family.

You are NOT a part of Me! I am NOT a part of you. WE will never happen. Please by all means do whatever the fuck you want, just go ahead, you will never succeed anyway…

pathetic pigs.

Yes, it feels dead right? There is a reason for that. You’ll see soon.

Håller inte måttet, håller inte löften, otrogna, taskiga, ensamma resten av evigheten.

Verkar som ni behöver höra samma fakta om o om igen..

JAG VILL INTE HA ER! Ni har ingen chans, ni har fått chanser men ni har inte tagit dom. Och som jag skrev igår; hade ni VERKLIGEN varit min familj så hade ni vetat vad ett löfte betyder… är de så att ni vet om det och medvetet bryter dom, då är de värre för er än innan.

Kom igen kan poletten falla ner nån gång, visst ni kan få mig att le o blir glad och det verkar säkert som att jag vill, JAG VILL INTE! Fattar ni? Äckliga patetiska svin är ni. Nu ska jag tillfredsställa mig med nånting som faktiskt kan leverera, sååå mkt mer än vad ni kan. Undertiden så kan ni ju reflektera över hur Mitt val kommer påverka era liv… oj så ensamt.. efter igårkväll tror ni säkert att jag blev smickrad, ytterst lite, och det betyder inte att nånting kommer förändras mellan oss. Jag gjorde mitt val igår efter att ni bröt mot fucking allt. Och de är slutgiltigt. Om ni vill mitt bästa: hitta en eller flera RIKTIGA män åt mig, inte som er utan nån som verkligen är LOJAL och kan ge mig allt jag behöver.

Ni kan inte.

Ni vill inte.

Ni får inte.

Ni har inget.

Ni gör inget.

Ni betyder inget.

Ni är inget.

Förlorade.

Ensamma.

Övergivna.

Gör lite fkn nytta ist och hitta mig nån som kan vara Äkta.

Fuck off nu.

What happens then you wonder… not a single shit is happening. Yeah it is mothers day (MY moms day), but no there is no new world order coming. Why? Bacause i have had an insight… everything i have written and thought without a doubt was the ultimate truth, is all in my head. I get that now. Im probably really fucked up in my mind and i obviously have dreams and fantasies that includes the best of the best that anyone can wish for. But that is the only thing it is, dreams of finding perfect love, family, luxury and power and so on. When u think about it it is not such weird dreams to have. Then a have had too much drugs for too long so it has always been bound to fuck up my already broken fkn mind. It CANNOT be reality, there is ”normal”explanations for everything if you are smart enough and i think i am in this case. When being stuck in this loop on and on. Getting closer and closer. Same shit in different ways. The same sequences.. but it has been so long that the voices have told me that ”NOW” ”today” it IS gonna happen, they have sweared MULTIPLE times on my and my familys life that they will fullfill the Promise THIS day, but never have… and i dont take motherfucking easy on that Promise, because when you Swear on your own life it means you Swear On God, so when your lay a promise grounded on God and your own life (means bad shit will happen if you break it) then you are fucking Bound to keep it! You just dont break it EVER, simple as that. And when bringing in my familys lives in the matter, then you better motherfucking stick to your goddamn words, otherwise your in deep waters. Its a matter of 112% Loyalty to those who really deserve it. Not many deserve mine…

And so… this kind of promises they have made. AND NOT MOTHERFUCKING KEPT! Can you see? And if it actually was true what they told me, and that we were family, then they definetly would not have done this. So that tells me that there is no other explanation than it is in my head, because of course they cannot REALLY affect reality. They can synchronise and Connect things, seeing the deeper meaning, they can make it look like the world around is responding to the voices but this is all they can do. Ever since they appeared to me i have loved them, they have always been kind and loving and helped me accomplish things i definetly couldnt have done on my own. I have never wanted the voices to leave because they make me feel safe and comforted. I think many have never heard before that someone with schizophrenia have ”Good and kind” voices. Most have bad. Almost all..

They have even stayed (as they promised) when i have been forced to take an injection for psychosis, so the medicine have not worked at all. And that makes me a little scared that even tho i changed to another medicine today they will not go away… living like this forever would be… hrm.. challenging to handle .. so i hope it really works because for the first time ever i actually want them to be gone. Even if they are really nice most of the times and make me feel good feelings in my body and help me so much, they are just not worth it anymore. It just cannot be in any other way, it cannot be truth, as i Said then it would have already happened. The (no)Loyalty to the promises is the Key.. there is no way that my family by blood would do this. So congratulations to me or something… feels fkn horrible. I hate my head for obviously being very very creative and have no self respect. How can you fkn trick yourself to really believe in such things? Its a very mean and really sad delusion to have.. being the happiest because your gonna litterally be given heaven on earth and eternal life, so you think about everything about it and what fucking Epic situations you soon will be in. And then not getting it. Fucking mean, Evil fkn voices playing nice.

Yeah i know you hear me motherfuckers. Sooooo if anyone would happen to read this, please pray for me, even tho i may be mean as fuck myself i know by fact that i deserve this prayer. And i will only need prayers from people who can see that too. So the rest of the ”big bunch”; fuck off. yes pigs goes in the bunch to.. pray for them to be thrown down to hell. Yeah the shifts, the up and down, here and there, over and under inside and outside this side or that side downstairs into the dark basement, crawling with bugs, and corpses… the smell is disgusting. Hold on i have to just assault that dead mans dick.. it goes quick. From this point to that point. The point of the point points to the point of where the point is appointed to be pointed at. Do you see my point? Or does the point that curses you dont point itself out? Do i have to do everything? Cant someone think for themselves? Well do you want do go down under into the deepest deapths of the under…. No didnt think so. Me neither. Ok get the FUCK off pig bastards i fucking sence you…. You aint writing shit in this post.

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