I dont know how to answer that. I can start with that being a warrior is not easy. Because a warrior never really want to die, never really can die. I think about it and i wish i could really want to die bacuase then i would be by now. But no i cannot if thats what they want they not gonna get it. Now i finally been allowed to smoke a lil so im happy again. But yeah dads you know i never fell for the ”tonight” thing, but you know what? You are soooo deep into my mind that it affects me anyway no matter what i do. Can you please sometime get out of my head and into reality? Would be nice.

I think about the part of a psalm ”whatever you ask for i shall give to you”, that doesnt seem to be true. I have prayed so manytimes to God, to myself, to you but nothing changes. I walk around in the shadow of the valley of death. Do i fear evil? Not really! The thing i fear if i do, is losing whats been promised, other than that? No. Bring it, bring the shadows, memories and evil, im ready because you know even if you see me cry, and even if i seem beaten down. I always Rise again, and i Will win this war that we are in. I never thought i was gonna have to go through these trials, but i should have seen it coming. But there is a point in that too. Im a Warrior what can i say, im unbeatable, unbreakable.

Tbc i guess