Yup.

Nope no smoke… well then this shit is settled then. Dont you ever come near or talk to me in ANY way ever fkn again. You bring nothing but disappointment. I will be able to take care of myself somehow, till the day i kill myself. And what how do you need me to do it? According to T i will hang myself. Well congratulations fucking hurtful bastards, …………………………since you clearly want me to. Guess thats it. Bye then thanks for the suffering. 

”Ohh shit now she is being a dramaqueen again threatening to kill herself.. for the 99999999 time..how can she stand herself?”

Yeah i dont know really, guess that is my meaning and purpose in the end since it is a well spoken off topic. Gotta fullfill it right? Yeah i have nothing else so why not? Will i do it tonight? Probably not but you never know how things turn out in the end.. i wont be so stupid that i would say ”TONIGHT im gonna kill myself”.. no because if im doin it it will be successful! Nobody will interrupt, and im pretty sure nobody would try that even if i wrote my date… because i have learnt now that nobody gives a shit about how i feel or if im alive or dead. Not even my parents, any of them. Not in a way that helps me anyway. So why the hell should i walk on this earth being so unwanted? No thank you. If anyone really cared, then i wouldnt be where im at now.. i wouldnt have to go through all feelings i have alone. But guess what, I HAVE AND I AM AND I DO! So fuck this world and fuck this life, it has given me nothing but pain in the end… lets let go of that pain now l’ho shall we? Yeah i really think we should.

So we think you should hang yourself as you mentioned.

Yeah so i can suffer the regrets while hanging there dangling by myself…

To the question;

Why i didnt take more? Because your just not worth it anymore.