Just knowing you know how i feel rn but you have no fucks to give about it, it hurts so fucking deep. 

Fuck it hurts. Where are you.. where have you gone? Why wont you answer my cries? Why do you put me through this? Please answer. Why does everyone ignore me? Cant anyone see my pain? Does not anyone who reads this blog care enough to just comment a single dot? Even that would make me feel less lonley. If it is only you who reads.. then Why wont you answer? How can you keep on Reading and see how it is fkn spiraling and see how fkn bad im feeling, not doing a shit?

I motherfucking needed you, you made me need you and then you just abandon me? Making me feel i need to punish myself.. making me Want to punish myself. How can anyone do that? How can not anyone see and help me? Why is everyone quiet? Am i so worthless that i rly dont deserve shit?