Ok so my daddies have before told me and i remember it from the dreams that sometimes i might be able to escape for like a few hours or a day if im good. Now K is telling me ”baby, maybe we dont want you to be able to escape…”. Apparently i was told that i would be just to snare me and bring me closer. All bad things they do they say they do for Our ultimate best. and that in the ”waking me up and bringing me home”-thing, they had to choose how to balance the time it will take and how far they will push me. They could choose for example that it would take a longer time and that’ll lead to me going through less pain. But to do it as fast as possible i would be pushed through a lot, still under their control, but with yeah… some troubles to pass through. Apparently they did not want to wait long and thats where my suffering comes from, for this to happen as fast as possible. And that in this the whole world must be included and that also pushes me. I hope this is the truth, inside me tho i think still believe it. Now im soon back in hookertown..

23:53 Ok so about the run away thing, i dont have to you know. Im very sure i can manage no more alone time ever, not even once. Im yours to keep, where you are i will be, where i am you will be. Always and forever.