Are i alive

Who Are You to tell me that you control me? Who are you? Definetly not one of mine.. i see your a tree with mosses on. Dark Brown and deep green.

Well you know what Mr Tree? No me neither..

Sucker for Love, Shelter for Life, Stoner for Life,  Yellow Pages Superhighway, Mortal Kombat: Deception, Lose My Number… Kiss Good Night, Hard Copy Device, Human Collapse Diseases/Disorder, Human cDNA Database, Host Controller Device, Decorrelated Fast Cipher, Disconnect Forward Connection=Hope This Works Then…

Nooooo

WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM??? Leave me the fuck alone. Ofc i would but that aint gonna happen so i never want to talk about it again…

I fkn hate these situations… as quickly as i come home all dies again and everything feels just like the days before.. the possibilities of life fades with time. 

I think shit have gotten so fucking negative. Everything just dies as summer comes. When i first was released i had faith, more and more, i had fun, it was hard but at least i had more fun. Everything felt possible, i felt it could happen anytime and anywhere, and i was on! But the weeks passed one by one by one.. so has my hope Done. I cant feel anything anymore, it alls seeems to be playing out just in my head, the dream is fading and soon it is Gone for real, or it probably already is, it definetly is. I hate this feeling, im so fkn scared what is going to happen to me, will i kill myself or will you save me like you Said? I think i’ll die, there is no motherfucking hope left. The dream is living through me, but it is not living through to reality, it will never become reality. I dont know im just repeating myself but im just so scared, i am sure nothing will happen and im gonna die, but at the same time i cannot see that Perfectly clear, so i have no Idea if im going to live or die and that is not a fun feeling. I have not gott’n any responses on my last posts and now everything is awfully quiet and lonely. I FUCKING HATE THIS LIFE, I HATE THIS WORLD & EVERYTHING IN IT, I HATE ALL HUMANS, I HATE SATAN & I HATE GOD.. AND I HAVE EVERY GODDAMN RIGHT TO SAY THAT BECAUSE EVERYONE JUST BETRAYS ME AND LEAVING ME ALONE AND LYING TO ME AND FUCKING PLAYS WITH ME LIKE IM NOT WORTH A FUCKING SHIT. AND I KNOW YOU READ… where does that lead? To me knowing you read and not caring or doing a single fuck… probably sitting there drinking coffee and laughing at me. Hope you have had fun with my life, you wont take it from me you best know that fuckers.

I dont know what else to do now, so just… i just hope you feel like shit and that the world would end this second………

die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die? Who will die? Will you die? And who are you? I dont know who are you yourself? Im death and you? I wont answer that you motherfucking shit. Can You allow me to kill you Mr death? I want to kill you and i think you should let me right? You know what lilo? I’ll give you that honour. Oh thats very nice of you… hm how will i do it? I think some good old torture first, then i will stick a knife through your black, cold heart. The knife will cause the ice to melt, the heart to turn red. The skin will go from putple and blue to normal, the ice on your lashes will melt and drip into your eyes. Causing you to suddenly see clearly for the first time since you were brought into existence. Can you feel your shadows thinning? Can you see the light shining trough brighter and brighter? Can you feel the warmth? It is spreading across your whole body, the ice in your veins melt and left is your dark red Blood flowing back and forth. It leaves your heart but it comes back just as fast that it is never empty. Your heart and your body will always be full of red, hot, living blood. The last thing to lose the ice are your feet, which you have used in your travels all over. And then, you are warm. Are you not? You can see. Can you not?

Come l’ho lets go fly on the fields for a while 🦄👌🏼…