Direct Exhaust Injection, Dynamic Effect Intake, Determination of Eligibility, Depth of Exploration, Dying of Boredom, Duty Of Care, Drug of Choice, Due Out Cancellation, Daughter of Compliance, Defamation of Character

THE DRUGS WONT EVEN FKN GIVE ME ANYTHING. Dictators of Fate  (gaming group), Drugs of Faith , Degree Of Freedom, Dads of Gaming, Death Or Glory, Department of Hell, Did Not Show, Determination of Non Significance, Day & Night Sight, Date Not Specified-never, Static No Delivery, Declaration of Independence, Date Of Loss, Double or Nothing, Determination of Need, Dropped Object Protection…First Delivery Attempt, Free Direct Access

I Know You sitting and reading my notes, i know you see exactly what i write. So with that newfound connection; does it feel good to hurt me? I Wonder what you’re thinking when you read that, how do you react In Real Life. Because you are each two parts. One from the world, the outside and looks, physical, the so fkn formal, work-only loving pigs, the real ones that actually exist, that if i see you you dont suddenly disappear, like i, when awake have seen tu multiple times right in front of me. Then just like that, gone. It looks like water in a glass that flows over, she just ”rained” away. And the dreams.. it is a disgusting feeling, when so safe and happy one second then in the blink of an eye they are not just only gone, but everything about there existence there and then vanishes completely from your consiousness, yet… you are still fucking aware of what just happened.. weird and not nice feeling and experience at all. And now i begin to feel those much more intense regarding you. I feel it, the flashes of memories. Which they to appears for a split second when i think about it, and i can feel the feeling of it. But i cannot hold onto it, it fades away fast. 

Any way, then there is the part of you that is all other than that, so fucking ironic is the way you truly are. You play really good i’ll have to give you that. The one who stands for the inside and the truth. The so damn magical, Well looks pretty magical to, the blood in my veins. I think that the DNA is what binds together our spirits to our bodys, fkn divine. 

So about where this started with your reaction to my question, fuck cant remember, you are TWO motherfucking parts standing for pretty much all opposites of the other. Cant you fucking merge the fuck together sometime?? Whats your problem? I dont like those feelings and now when the disappearing memory came and is sticking to you, it idk worries me. No idk. 

I also Wonder how you look and where you are when you make the decision to hurt me. Do you look bothered? Do you laugh at me? Do you go tell everyone how stupid i am for believing you? Or do you just sir there and think? Hm something is changing because i havent thought of you in that way before… 🧐