ok so apparently it is now a done deal. I dont really know what, or maybe i dont want to see it because a Done Deal is another way to express a Promise will be… yeah u know how it goes. And i think it is really mean to do like that when i felt ok with the new time… i dont know how many days you keep that shit up, because its enough for me at least..

It’s beginning to look a lot like ch… no rly not. I feel spiritualy dead, i sense and feel nothing. Nothing is fun, o usually love to write and look forward to it but no i dont feel that now. Everything is just fading away, like a magic hallucination…