my mind is not right right now. I dont know why. From one perspective im fine, lying here writing sentences on my phone…

But from other perspectives it is just not right. I feel something is going away from me. Something important to me maybe. I dont want to loose anything it’s just that. And so no it is not the right room in my head, nor is it the upper room or the lower room. So what is it? The left room ofc. I am left, alone, abandoned. And the maze closed and Sealed that shit up pretty fast now i tell you. A garden to. Not a good garden but a bad garden coming here again and fucking splitting me into fucking pieces!!! I dont know what the fuck is what anymore. Im losing those concepts now. Bye bye yes they went fast holy shit. Bye.

If everything should turn out to be in my head, then Please God forgive me my horrible sins. And please, Please Father help me, Save me, because i am lost and i Need you to find me right now and take me to you, Amen.

No matter what the truth turns out to be, I will Give it all up Here, i wont seek it anymore, wont trying so get more answers. I lay it all in Gods hands from this moment on. I know he’ll take me where i need to go, when i need to go there. Til then just… nothing