yes that time Will be no later than 03:33:33. After that, things are gonna change like a fucking explosion. Either for the Good or the bad. I hope ofc for the good, but the hope for the whole hometaking thing is not as strong as what the bad experiences are and have created. So i do think the change Will be a really bad one… a total cutoff from what has lit this beautiful fire inside me. From the promises and images that have been made about what magic awaits us. A cutoff from people i have become the really need, i depend on them for my survival, survival on all aspects of me. So the thought of that i probably Will wake up more lonely than ever tomorrow, it’s… not just a very sad thought, but a thought screaming of the deepest sorrow. That I have not only lost all in the world, but i have also lost every part of myself and my identity, my Will to live and my Faith in something good. It is a big loss im up against staring it right in its eyes. Idk what else to write about this.. Now or never, Win or lose, all or nothing, all for one or one for all. So goodnight i guess and Hey Dd’s? Dont, just dont let me down!