To pray swish nr: hahaha just shitting no the song ”Be för Mig-Dom första J.O.X Remix@

dDaddy where the fuck are you?? I cannot feel you. 19:48 todayYour always to close or to far. TOO GODDAMN FUCKING CLOSE to be possible. Sure kevin explains to me and i Know it Is Possible in all the ways, and furthest away from me Lies truths All Possibilitys but i cannot seem to be able to get close enough to REALLY believe it. And if i do not Really Believe Inside Then that means it is impossible. Wheterer it is or isnt possible according to the truth or not… if it is impossible for ME then it IS  impossible. According to the Truth. and there  19:56. FUCKING 

I want to write about how bad i want you here, but your non-precense is making me instead want to write to you to come make me feel you. And i feel it so fucking desperatly in my heart it hurts so bad, that it just doesnt work to write. I cannot stay in that lonely place. Even if i know i possibly can get an answer if i go there and search you and not just writing but something is holding me back. Is it you? Do you not want me or are you even real? I know from all evidence i’ve got that for a split second or more Convinces me then falls away. 

Boy or Girl, Boots on Ground

DoD… D och d. Wide? Stream wtf dos that even mean. Thank you for saving me i thought you was not close FUCKING HELL. 

Please fuxking do something then if u care about me. I know d but still i feel i get stuck in this lonely place aaand the impossibility of this being true. It is to good to be true and yes i know what i always have believed about that before but it is disappearing more and mor. You are coming to me in Truth and make me sooo happy, but way to quickly you Leave in a Lie, and everything dies. Hadnt we come closer to some form of ending to this misary place? It felt so. I dont know mabye a lil

I fucking need amphetamine!!!! NOW THATS WHY i feel bad

Some years later… okey daddyK tells me to tell a Very important song. It was That Song that started Awaken Me and my memories incoded in me. Its like a blurry flash and i Can see it with my Eyes 112/13%, but it is so fast that not EveN my Eye cant even begin to be able to caught it on the Lens, and inform my brain that there was a ”quick flash” and deliver That to My

consciousness. Still i can pick it up. 

That is how i experience a special memory awakening, its pretty cool. For the mini time of that flash I Am In that memory and it is totally clear and familiar for me where i am and in what context and only This One Word always Comes: Home. But it is not in the sense of me hearing it, not even a little, it is not a heard experience, but it is Felt. I can Feel the Word like a steadyness

Maxi-Master- Dickhead Kevin ’is telling you that if you want to experience the Real Symphony for a while, i have Hand on the bible, 112/13% Safe offers. Just call my MasterOffice, you know my last name so… now baby we are gonna play a game ok? Yes pliiis!! 🦄